Different Perspective
I let my hopeless romantic trait attract motivation
I am not a poet nor a wordsmith. Sometimes I romanticize everything around me, especially when I am cycling around the heart of the city I live. I suppose because I am a hopeless romantic and rather a shy woman. That makes my love life is also rather pathetic because I continually drown in my imagination. However, I guess I found a way to make my hopeless romantic trait useful whenever my motivation abruptly take holiday leave even though I immensely need it. In this writing, I will give a credit to them, some great men whom I adore.
I assume that every single person has a crush on someone they know or a stranger. Whether because of his/her look, attitude, passion, or achievement. An attraction to someone that we have a crush on is like sudden electricity that makes someone cannot help herself/himself glance over the person he/she has feelings into. If there is a possibility, some people might end up stalking their crush through social media or mining information from their friends.
It might sound crazy and ridiculous to think about it. Sometimes it can drain someone’s energy and emotion when her/his long time crush is already with someone else. However, as a spectator/observer of a particular person that someone is infatuated with, or for those who do not make a move or unsuccessfully court his/her crush, I think they are should realize that it will happen anytime.
I have been through that phase countless times. Admires them for so many years until I decide to stop, both consciously or automatically wash away as time goes by. Still, some of them leave a somewhat unforgettable impression and linger on my mind for a long time. Even though they are just a brief encounter.
The main reason why these men are stuck inside my head is mainly because of their passion and determination for something they are working on. Because of that, no wonder they can achieve so many prestigious awards and scholarships. It makes me wonder how can I get into that stage? is there any secret recipe to gain that success? how do they manage everyday struggles and perhaps some adversity? Those question that pops out inside my head become a generator to bring back my motivation gradually.
I might not end up with one of them because first, they are a hard 10 in the score when I guess I am only 7 or 8. Second, one of them is already married and have a happy family while working on his postdoctorate about very potential clean energy but a lot of people are still sceptic about it. Oh, and yes, these men are doing postdoctorate in the same country. Third, I and the married man barely know each other and I never have any intention to ruin someone marriage because I believe in Karma. Nevertheless, again I want to thank these two men for becoming my daily inspiration to reach that certain level and push myself to be better every day.
